Pardon me for using vulgarities in this entry.
But I just want to rant in here.
Work is so torturous.
I'm sad enough that i didn't get into A&E.
And for those who do not know, I actually got into Plastic Surgery & Eye ward.
Sounds interesting and cool right?!
It is! And I love the job scope there.
But the working environment sucks to the max!
And I thought that it shouldn't be difficult to blend into the ward.
I'm so wrong.
SO WRONG.
The fact that I'm new and the only one in the batch of August to get into this particular ward just makes things worst.
I'm like totally on my own.
Furthermore, I know nuts about PLASTIC SURGERY/EYE.
And when I tried to ask for help in something,
the staff there are hostile and FUCKING unfriendly!

Ward sister: "Everyone, we have a new staff today, she just came back from Australia, she is a degree holder."
Nurse 1: "wahh u already got ur degree, we only diploma lehh. You're so much more senior than us leh."
Nurse 2: " Yahh lahh, degree lehh, we want to take also cannot loh."

Every single shit also associate with my degree.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!
I personally don't think that having a degree is any greater.
My pay is only a pathetic $100 more.
My designation is still the same as them- staff nurse 1.
DAMMIT!
Seriously, if they want to be so sulky about it then jolly well go ahead and take the course.
Who is bloody stopping them man.
Freakingg pissed off sometimes.
Each time I try to brace myself up thinking that things will get better each day,
they never fail to disappoint me.
I ended up losing confidence towards this ward.
The more I dread going to work.
I even thought of transferring ward but that's like so LOSER isn't it?
I don't want to be a LOSER!
Well, I just hope for the better.
I really do hope and I'm trying to convince myself.
I'm hopeful!