It's proven isn't it?
Nothing but the ugly truth.

I have nowhere to vent my frustrations.
Seems like lady luck is always not by my side.
Where is my fairytale?
Seems like i really have to stay alone for the rest of my life just like how my gut feeling keeps telling me.
Why is it that the guys that i like always don't reciprocate.
And why is it that all the guys that like me, i don't reciprocate?
Some of my friends asked if I'm too pickyy or my expectations are too high.
Maybe i am.
But who wouldn't want to choose wisely.
Commitment is something i really treasure and respect.
I'm definitely not into flinging at all.
Initially, there was Lankky.
But I'm just so disappointed in him.
And now D. is somehow texting my friend.
I'm definitely backing out.
I shall not be looking forward to see him.
Shall not even be tempted to add him on Facebook.
Yes.
I have decided to just be normal and be on my own.
No more thoughts of D.
No more wishful thinking.
No more.
Dont even think of it Beth.

I'm so counting down to Zoukout tmr!
Hope its gonna be fun!
Hehe.
And I'm on leave til Monday.
Wheeee!
Party, party and party.
That's what I love the most isn't it?
HAHA.

I'm gonna meet my primary school friends for dinner on Monday!
OMFG.
Haven't been seeing them for decades.
Hopefully awkwardness don't come crawling towards us.
I'll try to make conversations of course!
I always try to talk to people.
I break the ice and I'm friendly.
HAHAHA.
Crapppy.
Hope it turns out well.
It will!
:D

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I have been talking to Lanky recently.
*BEAMS*
:DDD
I'm contented.

Ohh noo.
It's been ages since I updated my blog again.
I've been busy workinggg.
Off days are just for me to rest my aching legs, body and soul.
Partying days are limited.
Meet ups with friends are just based on my hectic schedule.
My life seems so screwed!
Well, what can i say?
I'm a nurse.
Caring for patients is my job.
So, no complaints.
And since the day i chose this profession,
I would have already expected all these coming.
=_=

I need a holiday badly.
Hope Daddy is planning a holiday destination soon.
I loveee travelling! Hehe.


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Zoukout is this coming Saturday.
I can't wait!
Partyyy!
:DDD
HAHAHA.
And all my Aussie mates are backk.
Woots.
Can't wait to see them.
I'm so gonna cam-whore.
Promise I would update my blog with pics.
As in regularly.
HAHA.

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On a side note,
Lankyy received my present already.
Phew. Luckily the mail didn't get lost or something.
Singapore post is very efficient indeed!
Speed post is just 3days.
Heeee.
And Lanky loves it!
Yayness!
I wonder what's his expression like?
But he seems really grateful.
I'm so happy and proud of myself.
Especially the card.
*A pat on my shoulder*
HAHA.
Can't wait for April next year.
Til then! :D

I haven't been blogging for the longest time!
But I will try to keep my blog updated as much as possible.
Well well, been really busy working.
So much so that I don't even have time for myself sometimes.
But I'm getting used to working.
Surprisingly, I'm sorta like loving my job as days goes by.
I hope the passion stays til the day my bond ends.
If not I'm gonna be so miserable!
Haha.
Ohh and I'm going to Bangkok with Baby Gus & Jer in January!
Wheeee!!!
I can't wait man.
We are so gonna have fun. Loads of it! Hehe.
And Saturday is Halloween!
Bestie wants to dress up.
Should I dress up as Marilyn Monroe?! Fairy?!
Or ghost?!
OMG, I'm so gonna take photos.
Many many photos.
I'm getting excitedddd, I can't contain it.
HAHA.
I'm Crazy.

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And i got a pleasant surprise today!
Though it wasn't really something big, this lil surprise just simply made my day.
I'm so gonna be smiling for at least a month.
:DDD

I'm sleeping soon.
Promise to update my blog regularly.
Ta! :))

Lianie told me she is going to Taiwan tomorrow.
Hearing that,
I realised that I'm missing Taiwan many many.
I'm not sure when is the next time I will go back there.
Hopefully soon.
:)

Pardon me for using vulgarities in this entry.
But I just want to rant in here.
Work is so torturous.
I'm sad enough that i didn't get into A&E.
And for those who do not know, I actually got into Plastic Surgery & Eye ward.
Sounds interesting and cool right?!
It is! And I love the job scope there.
But the working environment sucks to the max!
And I thought that it shouldn't be difficult to blend into the ward.
I'm so wrong.
SO WRONG.
The fact that I'm new and the only one in the batch of August to get into this particular ward just makes things worst.
I'm like totally on my own.
Furthermore, I know nuts about PLASTIC SURGERY/EYE.
And when I tried to ask for help in something,
the staff there are hostile and FUCKING unfriendly!

Ward sister: "Everyone, we have a new staff today, she just came back from Australia, she is a degree holder."
Nurse 1: "wahh u already got ur degree, we only diploma lehh. You're so much more senior than us leh."
Nurse 2: " Yahh lahh, degree lehh, we want to take also cannot loh."

Every single shit also associate with my degree.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!
I personally don't think that having a degree is any greater.
My pay is only a pathetic $100 more.
My designation is still the same as them- staff nurse 1.
DAMMIT!
Seriously, if they want to be so sulky about it then jolly well go ahead and take the course.
Who is bloody stopping them man.
Freakingg pissed off sometimes.
Each time I try to brace myself up thinking that things will get better each day,
they never fail to disappoint me.
I ended up losing confidence towards this ward.
The more I dread going to work.
I even thought of transferring ward but that's like so LOSER isn't it?
I don't want to be a LOSER!
Well, I just hope for the better.
I really do hope and I'm trying to convince myself.
I'm hopeful!